Man I just realised your dream may never make you happy

Okay so I have been going through some rough patches for a few years and now I am very close to success, for the first time in my life I have an actual clear path towards it

But damn, I had to let go of almost everything and everyone

In fact I can see this trend continuing in my life later on where I will slowly get to a point where I am unable to relate to my old friends, where my normal voice of conversation will sound “rich” or “pretentiously elite” to them

And I am not at all saying that I will be better than my friends, but rather I might drift away naturally because my personality will change

So the natural question you might have would be “so just don’t change, be yourself man”

but you CANNOT attain ground breaking success unless you change your personality multiple times over, you must deconstruct and reconstruct yourself multiple times over.

(image from Japanese Anime series Blue Lock, all credits to the creators)

I know its corny to say “Oh I will become a new me” but I feel like that’s such a sad thing too, while I dislike some parts of myself a lot, I also like my current self, I wouldn’t want him to cease existence because he watched one Japanese cartoon lol